hehehe. tknk lah ckp masalah kang makin banyak dapat, pdn muka kaw.
em perut bunyi lapau. actually, the clock shows 3.48am so pandai2 teka camane leh connect internet kan =,=. i've slept tadi lepas maghrib sbb penat gila. tp tu pun kejap jaga, kejap tidur balik. and then, terkejut gila tgk jam dah pukul 1.30am!! so terruuuuuusss lah bangun. duduk depan laptop and there tadaaaa "iium-community internet access".but the little tiny problem is that, fb takleh bukak, twitter takleh bukak so that's why la Ms ceriterabahagia ni peneman. tenqiuuuuu muacks.
Takde benda nak tulis ni just a remainder nak tegas kan kat sini that, yes i'm a girl, but i'm not that weak, i'm not that fragile. ok? fuhh ada orang tu cakap "kau kan asek saket je" k fine, aku baru sembuh demam, batuk, and saket mata. so what? the last 2/3 weeks have been hard for me but I still made it didn't I? I'm not a person yang cepat saket tapi bila dah TERsaket nak buat cane kan. It's just happen that when I know you, I got sick. as simple as that. please don't judge me beyond that. I'm not a person yang suka makan ubat so no wonder lah kalau lambat baik but still, I made it didn't I?
setelah 2 kali ditegas kan, yes, saya sembuh dah. sihat walafiat batuk tak teruk macam dulu and I can sleep peacefully last night. thanks for the doa.
tolong jangan salah anggap, bukan marah, bukan bengang just rasa tak patut. to the person yang cakap tu, sorry ehh. it's just happen that way and maybe sebab saya selalu mengadu kat dia so that's why dia anggap i'm a girl who gets sick all the time and can never depend on her own self. and yep, you can only trust someone you know you CAN trust but now I dont know. maybe I shouldnt kan?
and pasal taching2 ni. I'm not a person yang cepat taching2 ni. seriously sorry kepada sesiapa yang pernah terasa sy taching dengan korang. ahh dulu MR selalu lah kena. and di tegas kan disini, that it happens because I care. I care so much that everything I take it to heart. and yep, at least when that happens, i know when to stop caring so much kan? so so so when I stop, don't be sad. I just don't want to be a burden to you. bak kata Ms A, "don't hope too much, don't love too much and don't care too much, because too much makes you hurt so much" yep, it's hurt taappiii i promise, this will be the last time. I'm fine before I know you, so I'll be fine this time too. di tuju kan utk MR jugak :)
anw, I'll start moving on with my life. it's my life yep, not yours so duduk diam2 at your life sana (hahah! apa yang kau cuba cakap seehh)
Dear heart, your job is to pump blood. please don't do anything else. ok? I beeeegggggg yooouuuuuu. hahah!
haaiihh malam2 buta bukan nak study, dok luah perasaan pulak. duduk kat meja ni buku EC tutup lama dah, layan lagu sedih dengan berbalut comforter hmm kalau ada popcorn ke kopi ke mesti best. hahah.
kbai >,<
P/s: miss my mum TT,TT
Pp/s: I'm nobody for nobody but it's still worth living. Alhamdulillah :)
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