Acu in memories :(

Miss her so much. Sedih tk dpt tgk dia before she was gone forever.

Masa tu exam ED. Right after that mandi baring sekejap. Then mak call, cakap acu dh mati dh ptg td. Before tu mak ada jugak bgtahu acu tk nk makan. Even menyahut pun dh tak nak. And my mum said, masa hantar acu masuk wad tu, nampak dia pandang mak sayu je. Maybe she thought “they were gonna throw me away” and somehow lost her spirit to live anymore. Esok nya dia pergi L

Sebab dia tknak mkn tu tak da siapa tahu. My mum cerita, one day, acu keluar. And when mak blk dr sekolah, acu dh terbaring je tak larat. Ingat kan saja penat but then until 3 days dia tk nak makan and baring je.

Acu tu lebih kurang mcm my best friend lah. Kalau nak compare dgn kucing2 lain yang mahal2, dia tk lah lawa sgt. But she’s a part of our family. She’s a smart cat. Ingat lagi everytime dia nak tidur dalam rumah, mlm tu ketuk tingkap bilik my brother. And when nak keluar, dia akan panggil kita ajak pergi tingkap tanda dia nak keluar. And when dia nak ajar anak dia mkn, kami biasa bagi seekor ikan rebus. She will not eat ikan tu but instead bg kat anak dia mkn. And some other time, she’ll bring ikan tu naik atas untuk anak2 dia. Acu lah yang selalu teman sy tidur dulu. At first jual mahal tidur jauh, bila kita dh tidur, dia masuk selimut, celah tangan, tidur kt tangan, tidur atas bantal. She’s a type of cat yang bila kata “jangan” dia tak buat.

Malam tu mimpi dia. Dia terbaring je so I pick her up and belai dia. Kenapa tk tunggu akak balik cu?

I miss her so much that everytime I think of her, I would cry. It was like losing someone from your own family.

Sekarang nak study dh tak semangat but paksa je until habis final ni. Another 2 paper nak lepas, hopefully everything will be alright and run smoothly. Ini dugaan Allah bg untuk uji kita. Redha lah, yang datang mesti akan pergi, yang hidup mesti akan mati.

To acu, we were sorry for the times we left you home unattended, for the times we didn’t give you enough food to eat, for the times we scold you sbb pecahkan pinggan mak. And I’m sorry I wasn’t there when you were sick.

Rest in peace. Allah loves you more.

Hai Hai Final :)

yeaaasss (kenapa pelik sgt?) final coming soon. well actually dah coming dh, tengah melalui pun. 

24 May, 9am - Econs

26 May, 9am - Calculus

29 May, 2.30pm - EDrawing

30 May, 9am - BMelayu

31 May, 2.30pm - ECircuit

1 June, 9am - Statics

*from DELLY's sticky note.

sebenarnya sticky note kt dekstop ni banyak membantu. di masa2 tgk running man, main game, dtg blk kan kesedaran. hah! 

Actually, I need to be more serious ni. I got my own target sem ni. pelik tak, tk pernah2 nak target.

my first target, : get into the dean's list board. 

ceritanya macam ni, one fine day, jalan2 engin building and my step stop kt depan board tu. and guess what, a friend of mine, nama dia ada kat situ. and serious rasa "wah hebatnya budak2 ni". and at that moment, there was a sudden feeling, anxiety and i thought to myself, "I need to get my name on that board". Aminn, Ya Allah permudahkan lah :)

my second target, : kalah kan org2 dalam beware list.

beware ni bukan beware benci or anything. beware sebab diaorg dah mengalahkan saya dalam certain subjek. my dad kate, beat the best and my mum kate, be the best. see, then I need to beat them! 

ala dalam beware list ni org2 yang kenal je lah. kalau nak letak nama2 org yang tk kenal berjuta2 lah, ye dok? tsk. setakat ni, ada 4 org dalam beware list, nak sebut nama, tak nak lah.hee. you know yourself.

okay kalau tgk kat atas tu, Econs and calculus lepas dh kan?nak tanya ok ke tk ke?? 

haaa, tk payah tanya. Econs dgn Calculus dua2 tak ada confident jwb. benci, tak suke, hate myself. well, it's too late to regret dh pun. if I can score A both subject, really2 will be grateful. amin amin aminnn. 

lepas calculus tadi keluar pergi JJ with Ms A and Ms B, tujuan, makan kfc. tapi apa yang kami buat?

main arcade, main bola, main tembak2. taking pictures all the way back UIA. dekat LRT jakun dah lah duduk depan sekali. mmg Kampung.com. we call ourself "3 idiots". ring any bell?? HAHA

I like being with them. Ahh okay bukan diorg je, semuuuuaaaaaaa kwn2 lah :)

okay, need to focus back on my journey to success. let my mind fly freely first, then start back your main aim of being here. you know yourself, what you want kan. kita semua dah besar, pandai tahu baik buruk. pandai tahu nak kerja ke, nk duduk lorong je. *pinjam ayat kawan :)

To my friends, all the best for your final. do your best sbb bila kita buat yang terbaik, there's no regret kan :)

until then, 

P/s: tak sabar gila nak balik Melaka lepas final ni hohoho

Pp/s: while writing, there's someone on my mind. kenapa ntah :)

Ppp/s: May Allah blessed us with happiness never sadness