whatthee?

Hai. hehe
Malu acually lepas tulis post hari yg emo tu.
Di kesempatan ini, nak ckp la sorry kepada sesiapa yg terasa. thats just how i feel. takda ckp sesapa incompetent or whatever okay.
hee

Happy Final Exam :)

Final is near.

Actually takkan tertulisnya blog ni kalau tak stress, tension or in the middle of breaking down.
Here nak cakap I got more or less 1 week for my final. Ahhh freaking scary and really hope I can maintain my pointer. Kat hujung tanduk je dah tu.

Wuuu.
Good night!! ;)

Hari yang emo

Harini tataw asal rasa nak emo jep.
Hari start dengan pukul 2 still waiting for a group member to submit her work that is the discussion section for programming subject. Lastly aku yang buat that report. And tak boleh tidur, golek2 katil until I can't even remember if i sleep. Subuh at 6 then terus tak tidur. But then kelas 830 cancel baru lah tidur.

Lepas tu petang tu lepas tutor, kena marah dengan "Habis kenapa suruh org datang?!" and I was like "memang nak bagitahu tapi phone habis bat nak buat cemane". Suddenly I remeber masa dulu dia punya phone selalu mati when we're in the middle of conversation, tade lah marah dia sampai macam tu. Haih.

But then I give up and ikut plan dia. Then 1 more incident happen. I thought of only joking and kidding. I take a little makanan dia tapi dia cakap "Wah nak habiskan makanan kita ke?" like I'm a monster atau someone berpenyakit yang nak makan sikit makanan dia, dia terjangkit. Damn I'm crying.

Then mencebik tak ikhlas macam everything I do semua salah. Fine. I keep my anger, stay silence and study. Dia start hentak2 barang and blame me for saying dia berkira. Blaming me for buat dia rasa bersalah and i lost my patience. I'm sorry for that.

Balik bilik borak dengan akak bilik pasal kucing dia. Ya Rabb teruk sangat kucing dia kena kanser kulit kat bahagian mata tu. And suddenly teringatkan Acu. Cried for a while then Solat Isya' and cried again on the sejadah. Then nak study and revise for math tapi teronline FB and ternampak section notes. I read back the notes I wrote 4 years back. Untuk MR, untuk my friend. My so-called bestfriend yang sekarang dah tataw mana pergi, I miss them, I miss MR, I miss Acu. Azim said "Cepatnya 4 tahun berlalu. He still keep on listening to the song I gave him to cheer him up 4 years back. And I cried again.

Starting to write this entry, our (MR and me) song play kat playlist. "With me - Sum 41." I cried again. I wrote what I feel here cause I know no one will read this blog. This is the only safe place to say out my mind and cried while writing. If someone really care they will find their own ways knowing me more not because I shared this on Twitter or FB.

I really am sorry for everything and I just hope I'm somebody's someone. Always feel like there always someone else they prefer over me.

Ya Allah, Kau jagalah hati aku. Aminn

P/s : I might be crying today while writing this entry. but I know in the future when I read this back. I'll be like "what an emo me before". I hope.
Pp/s : May Allay ease everything.

Dikeheningan malam Jumaat

Its currently 1.16 Friday morning. Hehe. Just finish doing my assignment.  Baru tahu sebenarnya yang programming ni susah rupanya. Masa kt cfs dlu tk ada la susah camni rasanya. Tp nak buat hok guano makin kita besar makin banyak la dugaan pelajaran. Kan hehe ;)

Haih. Cerita pasal pelajaran, hari Rabu lepas exam berderet intro dan thermodynamics. This pemberitahuan is CLEARLY buian utk membangga. Thermo langsung takleh jawab. And when I say langsung tak, I really mean LANGSUNG TAK. Sedih la sangat. Down yang teramat masa tu. Tapi I'm all at fault. Sikit from lect sbb almost all my classmate thought the exam only covers until chapter 3. Or so I thought? But then masuk until chapter 5 and guess what  I only know it at 1.15pm when the midterm start at 2pm!!!!
My fault pulak, sebab cuti, badan yg dh terbiasa cuti and rehat tetiba kena study memang la susah. Keke. Dah la cuti kat Legoland bukan calang2 hahaha. Anyway, rasa menyesal tapi nak buat macam mana. Life has to go on yedok?? Heee(>,<)

Hmmm, before ni kan sy ada post editted pic of me and my brother funny kan? Hoho nak puji diri sendiri latu. Just this afternoon, dpt tahu 1lagi feature cymera that is it can make your sad or not-smiling face smile, your small sepet eyes bigger, yourface body skinier and vanishing all your dark spots. Eheee. Bila try buat kat muka sendiri, lawak tergolek2 gelak sbb diri sendiri tawu muka sendiri kan. But then I was wondering, bukannya tak pernah nampak sesape edit gambar sendiri bgi besar mata, kurus bdn and claim the person in the pic is you. Yeah technically BEFORE you edit it.
First what is so great having your eyes as big and bulat as bola tennis tu? Ciptaan tuhan tu dah sempurna, tunjukkan kita yang sebenar and if you really shame of your body feature then don't show it at all. Its not that hard.  Ada this one artist picture that shows the eyes was beyond normal size . And in real life, mmg artis tu mata besar comel cantik tp bila dia buat gambar dia camtu r macam, kenapa perlu. You already beautiful just the way you are. So yeah taknak gitaw sape. :p

Apa lagi nk cakap. The clock shows 1.48am. I really should sleep sbb eok pagi ada automotive lab huiii. Aaaaaaaa. Busynya nak balik rumaaaaahhhhhhhhhh rlex je takleh ke :(
Sekian from me. Great Friday night peeps ;)

P/s: you, I hope you do well for your midterm tomorrow don't be like me eh.
Pp/s: doa tu tersangat penting when all you can do is regret and hope.
Ppp/s: april fool. Eh? :p

Avery long time no see ;)

Hellooooooo....
Long time no see. Rasa dah lama gila tak update this blog.
If you look at the last post date then youll know how long ehhee

Well besides, this sudden entry wont be long either so yeah you're gonna miss me a whole lot more kn dear loggie?? ;)

This entry basically ditulis sbb nk update psl my new life. Nothing special pun -,-
Now currently a 2nd year engineering automotive student in IIUM. Great place here. Tak terfikir nk tinggal kn sini pun. Cuma kadang2 when things got out of control like when I cannot get into a class that I want, or when lect as me to do a presentation in english, or when keluar outing nk balik lambat tak boleh coz ada curfew, or when A MAD GIRLFRIEND CAME LOOKING FOR ME WITH A HELMET TO BEAT ME UP FOR THE WRONGS I NEVER DONE. Haha lepaskn marah nampk ._.
Oh well, its not her fault. The boyfriend's.

Hmm sini I join this one club/society ikut Miss B and I got pretty attracted to it. But the main problem is that, since bila tah, the club stop sending me messages yang bagitahu if they have program. Bukan nk cakap apa, tp when program tu berjalan, sibuk cakap tk cukup member sedangkan this member ygdh tertarik gila2 tak dpt info. Well actually bkn la tak dpt info sbb ramai jep kwn2 kt sana yg semua pn dapat text tu. Taknak la cam menggedik sibuk nk join sedangkan that club tak ajak kau pn camtu. But yeah it happen. Not just to me, to a whole lot other member as well. And kebanyakan diorg dah tawar hati sebab macam dianak tirikan. Yeah mistake do happen but sometimes it'll cause you more if it didnt fixed. Ish3.

Enough about that, hehe saja lepaskan kat sini. Nak study la sbb ths Wednesday I got 2 exam berturut maaaa aiihhh. This is all from me. Before we depart, only Allah knows when we'll meet again so here's a little something to keep you remember me :)

P/S: Thats not a real hair and I wear my tudung beneath the fake hair.
PP/S: Bulu mata and make up also fake.
PPP/S: I did this by cymera apps for android. Give it a try ;)