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Updating . . .

From previous post maybe I should first report (report?!) my result eh? haha.
Last sem's result oklah. Sesuai dengan what I deserve and effort. Sebenarnya masa mak tanya kenapa ada B tu baru perasan lama dh rupanya tk dpt B. Sorry lah cannot hold that record for too long. But since I didn't do good enough so tkleh lah nak salah kan sesapa. 

Dah rasa bersyukur tersangat-sangat lah. Pergi kelas beg pun tak bawak. Kelas tutor pergi sekali dua kali je. Selalu cari pasal dgn tutor, assignment buat last min, quiz study last min, kadang2 pun tk study so fine la kn. And like always, selalu je ckp, ok next time buat betul2, and kali ni pn nk ckp mcm tu jgk. 

tup tap tup tap dah nak bulan September, new sem will begin, new class, new lecturers, new subject. I know it'll getting a lot harder sbb mak ayh pun cakap hidup ni makin lama makin susah, bukan makin lama makin senang. Kalau tak acane nk berjaya? hahaha (knp gelak tah).

sekarang tgh melalui puasa. Adalah dlm less then one week utk raya. And I think this Ramadhan, I didn't do good enough. Oh why. I'm scared I might regret it. Maybe because bkn kat UIA and the surrounding is completely different from the last Ramadhan. 

Buat apa cuti ni, kalau nak di pandang secara kasar, boleh jugak ckp tk buat apa2. My uncle text ada kerja kosong kt office dia pun sy tolak. Masa tu memang rasa nak rehat dulu. But then nyesal sorang2. Mak pun suruh duduk rumah je tolong apa yg patut. Oh laa walaupun tk kerja masa tidur pn macam biasa, tk bertambah pun. Or we can say masa tidur that so called 'macam biasa' tu dh memang banyak? haha

Before habis kan entry kali ni, I know I maybe won't update this blog for quite a long time sbb malas and tk de keje den nk update selalu, so just nk wish and say all the best in everything you do, Selamat hari Raya, mintak maaf for the wrong doings and stay healthy u'ols  :)

Engineering was hard?

Assalamualaikum (gaya upin ipin)

Holiday starts J

Well actually, lama dah start tapi bila nak tulis, ada je yang menghalang. So on this wonderful Friday morning, I take this opportunity to write.

Takda benda pun nk ckp kat sini just semalam terbaca one brother ni punya blog about how hard can the communication engineering be (lebih kurang gitu lah yek). I wanted to post his blog punya link but then I lost track of his link and I don’t even know his name so takpe lah kan. Hehe. Sorry L

Dekat blog tu he basically post about others opinion and most of them ckp “this is hell hard”, “nothing’s easy”, “engineering is the hardest course” and one more yg ada kaitan with me is that “mecha and autom engineering is the hardest (well he use the word ‘payah’)”.

At first baca, I was like cuak and what in-the-whole-wide-world should I do. But then from what he said too, nothing is easy right? If life were easy, there won’t be any tears, any failures. 

And yeah all that depends on ourself jugak. Remember when kita form 3 and like everyone cakap addmath is the hardest subject. And for the record, I never get below than A+ for add math (actually penah sekali dpt A je cz it was tough tapi tu pun one more mark to get A+). 

Bukan nak berlagak or anything tapi nak cakap, easy or hard, it all depends on ourself. Contoh lagi like when people say biology was hard. Well it was hard for me (=,=) tapi ada je yang score betul tak?

Maybe yes engineering is the hardest course tapi ada je engineer kan? So just let’s keep our head high and never give up. Sebenarnya tulis post ni sbb nk sedap kan hati lettewww (>,<)

Good luck, good luck for all sebab dgr kata result keluar this Wednesday (20^th June). Doa lah banyak2 coz 1 step awal kita dh lepas. Tinggal doa and tawakal everything to Allah. And jangan sahaja mintak for our result to be good, tapi mintak la jugak untuk Allah redha kan hati kita dengan apa saja result yang kita dapat tu. Hehe

Until then. J

P/s: I am majoring in mechanical-automotive engineering in IIUM. And yes I’m a girl

Pp/s: Let’s pray that Allah will always be close to us and guide us on our journey here. Aminn 

Acu in memories :(

Miss her so much. Sedih tk dpt tgk dia before she was gone forever.

Masa tu exam ED. Right after that mandi baring sekejap. Then mak call, cakap acu dh mati dh ptg td. Before tu mak ada jugak bgtahu acu tk nk makan. Even menyahut pun dh tak nak. And my mum said, masa hantar acu masuk wad tu, nampak dia pandang mak sayu je. Maybe she thought “they were gonna throw me away” and somehow lost her spirit to live anymore. Esok nya dia pergi L

Sebab dia tknak mkn tu tak da siapa tahu. My mum cerita, one day, acu keluar. And when mak blk dr sekolah, acu dh terbaring je tak larat. Ingat kan saja penat but then until 3 days dia tk nak makan and baring je.

Acu tu lebih kurang mcm my best friend lah. Kalau nak compare dgn kucing2 lain yang mahal2, dia tk lah lawa sgt. But she’s a part of our family. She’s a smart cat. Ingat lagi everytime dia nak tidur dalam rumah, mlm tu ketuk tingkap bilik my brother. And when nak keluar, dia akan panggil kita ajak pergi tingkap tanda dia nak keluar. And when dia nak ajar anak dia mkn, kami biasa bagi seekor ikan rebus. She will not eat ikan tu but instead bg kat anak dia mkn. And some other time, she’ll bring ikan tu naik atas untuk anak2 dia. Acu lah yang selalu teman sy tidur dulu. At first jual mahal tidur jauh, bila kita dh tidur, dia masuk selimut, celah tangan, tidur kt tangan, tidur atas bantal. She’s a type of cat yang bila kata “jangan” dia tak buat.

Malam tu mimpi dia. Dia terbaring je so I pick her up and belai dia. Kenapa tk tunggu akak balik cu?

I miss her so much that everytime I think of her, I would cry. It was like losing someone from your own family.

Sekarang nak study dh tak semangat but paksa je until habis final ni. Another 2 paper nak lepas, hopefully everything will be alright and run smoothly. Ini dugaan Allah bg untuk uji kita. Redha lah, yang datang mesti akan pergi, yang hidup mesti akan mati.

To acu, we were sorry for the times we left you home unattended, for the times we didn’t give you enough food to eat, for the times we scold you sbb pecahkan pinggan mak. And I’m sorry I wasn’t there when you were sick.

Rest in peace. Allah loves you more.

Hai Hai Final :)

yeaaasss (kenapa pelik sgt?) final coming soon. well actually dah coming dh, tengah melalui pun. 

24 May, 9am - Econs

26 May, 9am - Calculus

29 May, 2.30pm - EDrawing

30 May, 9am - BMelayu

31 May, 2.30pm - ECircuit

1 June, 9am - Statics

*from DELLY's sticky note.

sebenarnya sticky note kt dekstop ni banyak membantu. di masa2 tgk running man, main game, dtg blk kan kesedaran. hah! 

Actually, I need to be more serious ni. I got my own target sem ni. pelik tak, tk pernah2 nak target.

my first target, : get into the dean's list board. 

ceritanya macam ni, one fine day, jalan2 engin building and my step stop kt depan board tu. and guess what, a friend of mine, nama dia ada kat situ. and serious rasa "wah hebatnya budak2 ni". and at that moment, there was a sudden feeling, anxiety and i thought to myself, "I need to get my name on that board". Aminn, Ya Allah permudahkan lah :)

my second target, : kalah kan org2 dalam beware list.

beware ni bukan beware benci or anything. beware sebab diaorg dah mengalahkan saya dalam certain subjek. my dad kate, beat the best and my mum kate, be the best. see, then I need to beat them! 

ala dalam beware list ni org2 yang kenal je lah. kalau nak letak nama2 org yang tk kenal berjuta2 lah, ye dok? tsk. setakat ni, ada 4 org dalam beware list, nak sebut nama, tak nak lah.hee. you know yourself.

okay kalau tgk kat atas tu, Econs and calculus lepas dh kan?nak tanya ok ke tk ke?? 

haaa, tk payah tanya. Econs dgn Calculus dua2 tak ada confident jwb. benci, tak suke, hate myself. well, it's too late to regret dh pun. if I can score A both subject, really2 will be grateful. amin amin aminnn. 

lepas calculus tadi keluar pergi JJ with Ms A and Ms B, tujuan, makan kfc. tapi apa yang kami buat?

main arcade, main bola, main tembak2. taking pictures all the way back UIA. dekat LRT jakun dah lah duduk depan sekali. mmg Kampung.com. we call ourself "3 idiots". ring any bell?? HAHA

I like being with them. Ahh okay bukan diorg je, semuuuuaaaaaaa kwn2 lah :)

okay, need to focus back on my journey to success. let my mind fly freely first, then start back your main aim of being here. you know yourself, what you want kan. kita semua dah besar, pandai tahu baik buruk. pandai tahu nak kerja ke, nk duduk lorong je. *pinjam ayat kawan :)

To my friends, all the best for your final. do your best sbb bila kita buat yang terbaik, there's no regret kan :)

until then, 

P/s: tak sabar gila nak balik Melaka lepas final ni hohoho

Pp/s: while writing, there's someone on my mind. kenapa ntah :)

Ppp/s: May Allah blessed us with happiness never sadness 

Prereg dan UIA :)

Assalamualaikum! :)

Uia ada prereg. kau ada? hahaha (pendahuluan yang kontroversi)

Hari jumaat yang lepas adalah hari utk prereg kami2 pelajar UIA sini. wahh memang bersedia habis la kiteorg. Akak Firah ketua kumpulan project BM kiteorg bersedia membawa kiteorg keluar dari UIA yang permai ini bagi mencari punca internet stabil dan kuat. haha! memang best kan ayat sy? biasa lah org belajar BM :">

anw, nak di jadikan cerita lahai, kiteorg buat keputusan untuk melepak di mcD. tepat pukul 1.45pm (okey tepat ke? soorryyy sy yang lmbt) kami bertolak ke mcD. mula bincang project youtube BM tu. and when clock shows 4.30pm semua org including me start to nervous. people are texting and good luck wishes comes from everywhere. seriously, tiba2 rasa macam nak tengok result final pulak. and there suddenly mcD full of people. not just REGULAR people but UIA people!! ok fine terkejut, diorg pun datang nak buat prereg okeh. at 5 tepat, line start to slow mcm siput hadoi. and we all start the war. refresh2 page sampai dapat masuk. 1st person dlm group kecil kami yang dpt masuk adalah Ms B. wah mmg happy lah dia. and mmg bengang lah kami. and so kami pun berlawan lah dgn server uia berbekal kekuatan jari dan kesabaran yang kuat. 

and another problem rises. tempat yang kiteorg duduk tu sepatutnya ada plug untuk charge, but then ada brother datang nak pakai plug and dia bukan charge pun. dia pakai direct current trus and like forever dia pakai plug tu! 4 laptop, one by one start to DIED!! macam cerita final destination tak? tapi my Delly was the last laptop standing so Delly yang tolong prereg untuk Ms A and Ms B and Ms Nono. dah habis tu about 6 kami pergi festival city. and the funny part is, kami yang boleh solat ni cari lah surau comel kt mall tu. about 7 baru jumpa. nasib baik sempat asar then maghrib. then buat kerja gila amik gambar yang sticker tu kat arcade mall tu. weird part is, kami banyak amik masa edit gambar tapi the editing yang tak keluar, idk why. Hemmm. Pape lah.

After much hardship, kami balik UIA untuk smbung habis kan projek youtube kat safiyah. And tiba2 raining pulak so we were wondering, How in the world are we gonna go to Safiyah in this condition. Luckly ada sorang kawan dtg ckp dia boleh hantar kami. Baik kan dia. Always said “don’t worry, semangat waja coming” haha. He’s a nice friend. Then I realize he’s a year older than. And he’s a tahfiz. Ok fine =,=

Ahh penat. Nak tidur, k bye >,<

There can be miracles :)

When You Believe – David Archuleta Song Lyrics

Lyrics of When You Believe – David Archuleta

Many nights we’ve prayed

With no proof anyone could hear

In our hearts a hopeful song

We barely understood

Now we are not afraid

Although we know there’s much to fear

We were moving mountains

Long before we knew we could

There can be miracles

When you believe

Though hope is frail

It’s hard to kill

Who knows what miracles

You can achieve

When you believe

Somehow you will,

You will when you believe

In this time of fear

When prayer so often proves in vain

Hope seemed like the summer birds

Too swiftly flown away

Yet now I’m standing here

My heart’s so full, I can’t explain

Seeking faith and speaking words

I never thought I’d say

They don't always happen when you ask

And it's easy to give in to your fears

But when you're blinded by your pain,

can't see your way save through the rain

thought of a still resilient voice, says love is very

near.

There can be miracles

When you believe

Though hope is frail

It’s hard to kill

Who knows what miracles

You can achieve

When you believe

Now you will,

You will when you believe

P/s: Naik kan semangat anda! yeeaahh

Pp/s: believe in Allah, believe in yourself, InshaAllah everything will be okay :)

Sejak kebelakangan ni, selalu rasa macam diri ni rapuh je. cepat je putus asa, cepat je hilang semangat, cepat je hilang fokus, cepat je kecewa, hilang sabar, semua lah! Dear heart, please don't jump around as you like. ikut lah cakap otak pleasseeee.

eeerrggghhh seriously apa dah jd lah dengan aku nih :(

ptg td hujan lebat gila, duduk tepi tingkap termenung. kita busy sangat dgn hal dunia. hati kita tk tenteram mungkin sebab dia rindu kan penciptanya. kalau bagi tahu orang pun orang takkan faham. DIA je yang tahu.

Farah Aqilah!! tegak kan balik kepala kau, lurus kan balik fikiran kau!! tolong lah fikir rasional sikit :(

Ya Allah, kuat kan lah hati ku, iman ku, menghadapi ujian yang kau berikan ni TT_TT

Sorry ^^

Belum sampai 24 jam dah update lagi blog ni. kalau dulu hari2 update means adalah masalah, ni msti laaagggiii banyak masalah kan??

hehehe. tknk lah ckp masalah kang makin banyak dapat, pdn muka kaw.

em perut bunyi lapau. actually, the clock shows 3.48am so pandai2 teka camane leh connect internet kan =,=. i've slept tadi lepas maghrib sbb penat gila. tp tu pun kejap jaga, kejap tidur balik. and then, terkejut gila tgk jam dah pukul 1.30am!! so terruuuuuusss lah bangun. duduk depan laptop and there tadaaaa "iium-community internet access".but the little tiny problem is that, fb takleh bukak, twitter takleh bukak so that's why la Ms ceriterabahagia ni peneman. tenqiuuuuu muacks.

Takde benda nak tulis ni just a remainder nak tegas kan kat sini that, yes i'm a girl, but i'm not that weak, i'm not that fragile. ok? fuhh ada orang tu cakap "kau kan asek saket je" k fine, aku baru sembuh demam, batuk, and saket mata. so what? the last 2/3 weeks have been hard for me but I still made it didn't I? I'm not a person yang cepat saket tapi bila dah TERsaket nak buat cane kan. It's just happen that when I know you, I got sick. as simple as that. please don't judge me beyond that. I'm not a person yang suka makan ubat so no wonder lah kalau lambat baik but still, I made it didn't I?

setelah 2 kali ditegas kan, yes, saya sembuh dah. sihat walafiat batuk tak teruk macam dulu and I can sleep peacefully last night. thanks for the doa.

tolong jangan salah anggap, bukan marah, bukan bengang just rasa tak patut. to the person yang cakap tu, sorry ehh. it's just happen that way and maybe sebab saya selalu mengadu kat dia so that's why dia anggap i'm a girl who gets sick all the time and can never depend on her own self. and yep, you can only trust someone you know you CAN trust but now I dont know. maybe I shouldnt kan?

and pasal taching2 ni. I'm not a person yang cepat taching2 ni. seriously sorry kepada sesiapa yang pernah terasa sy taching dengan korang. ahh dulu MR selalu lah kena. and di tegas kan disini, that it happens because I care. I care so much that everything I take it to heart. and yep, at least when that happens, i know when to stop caring so much kan? so so so when I stop, don't be sad. I just don't want to be a burden to you. bak kata Ms A, "don't hope too much, don't love too much and don't care too much, because too much makes you hurt so much" yep, it's hurt taappiii i promise, this will be the last time. I'm fine before I know you, so I'll be fine this time too. di tuju kan utk MR jugak :)

anw, I'll start moving on with my life. it's my life yep, not yours so duduk diam2 at your life sana (hahah! apa yang kau cuba cakap seehh)

Dear heart, your job is to pump blood. please don't do anything else. ok? I beeeegggggg yooouuuuuu. hahah!

haaiihh malam2 buta bukan nak study, dok luah perasaan pulak. duduk kat meja ni buku EC tutup lama dah, layan lagu sedih dengan berbalut comforter hmm kalau ada popcorn ke kopi ke mesti best. hahah.

kbai >,<

P/s: miss my mum TT,TT

Pp/s: I'm nobody for nobody but it's still worth living. Alhamdulillah :)

Keluar jalaaannnnnn

Ohhoooiiii (kurang hajar nyaaa), ehee Assalamualaikum :)

sekarang ni kat edu, eceehh of course lah, asal ada internet je kat edu lah, mana lagi. haaih kdg2 tu pelik lah. kat cfs ok je. tak penah pun ada masalah dapat line tapi tk leh masuk cenggini. at least pun internet perlahan la kat sana. tapi niiiiiii.. tataw apa masalah. weirdd. is it?! hmph, never mind.

jangan dok kutuk2 UIA ni sebab semua yang keluar dr mulut kita adalah doa. sooo jom doa sama2 untuk UIA yang permai niii. teeheee.

ok tgk title, tgk entry, tgk title balik, tgk entry blk. haha. ok finee keluar jalan tu means "jalan ke edu" je laa eehh. jangan salah anggap. actually, ada je plan nak keluar. but then.....then..... then..... wuuuuuuuu T,T

dok bilik je laa. fulus takda, tenaga takda and plus! mggu depan quiz baaaanyaaaaakkkk gilaaa.. suppose kiteorg punya quiz ec ngn static mggu lps tapi terbatal, dan tertangguh, so semua semua di pack kan kepada miggu depan including quiz calculus. tataw kenapa takda confident langsung subjek calculus kat sini. i know sy penah dapat full mark math masa kt cfs dulu tapi tuuuuuu CFS!! laaaiiiinnnnnn. siiiniiiii laaaiinnnnn. kt cfs tak study pun quiz full mark, kat sini dah buat latihan hampir semua kat dalam buku pun sekadar 6/10. maaaaaaaakkkk tolong TT___________TT

pape ah merapu sorang2. jom jom. start study EC bersama.......bayang2. gahahaha. ok dok sini sorg2 so peneman bayang2 lah. kan ? kan? (tgk tu merapu lagi) so so so, until then. hee

P/s: Although it's hard, it was never impossible kannn :)

Be strong, you still have HIM :)

Assalamualaikum :)

It's been painful. yep so painful since that incident. try kuat kan hati, kuat kan iman.

Org kata, "When no one else is around, remember you have ALLAH to turn too". it's true though. Cried to Him and He'll give you the nur and peace of mind and heart.

It's been rough for me. Laugh, doa is my cure. InshaAllah everything will be just the way they are. and sometimes i do hope that this is just a nightmare that i would wake up and find things would stay as they are. But astagfirullah, everything that happened do have meaning deep inside them. I sure hope someday, I'll understand everything.

yes, I will cry now and then, but by crying, it strengthen my heart and iman.

and since I'm a girl, I always tend to like someone soon after that to fill my heart. ans yes astaghfirullah, it wasnt a good decision and thing to do.

" Ya Allah, give me your mercy and strengthen my heart to find YOUR ONE and ONLY love".

One of my best friend here said,Ms A "We should never go against fitrah, that's our fitrah, liking different gender. it's better than liking someone your gender-liking in the meaning of lust-, but everything have it's limit. simply because to control our self and have our heart straight to Allah."

It's a good advice and I've made my promise, until I correct myself to be a better person, stop searching for someone better. I do not deserve anyone better unless, I'm a better person my self.

and she said, "Of course it's wrong to reject whoever came because we don't like them, we'll never know who our future husband will be until it's time"

my other friend said, Mr. KAY "stop judging someone like we are perfect, labeling someone is a disease of heart", Mr N, "cacat luaran tu dugaan, cacat dalaman tu penyakit"

My father said, "when it come, it will just come. Allah dah tulis semua, termasuk jodoh kita sebelum kita lahir lagi. focus on your study more important then other things"

Don't be afraid to live alone. there will be someone for you. if not, Allah is there isn't it :)

until then, have a nice weekend and a nice midterm week :)

Midterm Coming soon!

23March -EC midterm, ED quiz

2April -ECONS midterm

4April -Static midterm

6April -ED midterm

8April -Calculus midterm

9April -ED midterm

12April -BM midterm

nahh amik kauu! copy paste from my DELLY's sticky note.

i know it's weird cz ada dua "ED midterm" kat situ. tapi tu yg lecturer kiteorg ckp T,T

so far, life's been.....ok laaaa. hahah. Alhamdulillah, roh dan jasad masih bersama. tu dah cukup untuk rasa bersyukur kan. wah wah wah..

hah, I got a friend, penah terfikir mcm ni

"haish korg ni, time susah sebuk cari aku. lps tu bkn kesah aku" sounds pathetic kn? pfft, mmg pun. ME, bukan diorg.

I was like talking to myself, "like seriously farah aqilah?! kenapa kau berkira sangat. kan pahalaa tuu. kitaaa tlg la slagi boleeehhh kaaannn"

fine, i was like punching my own self with my own fist and my own force and magnitude. erk..ni mesti sbb dan demam midterm.. wuuuuuuu

tp like always, relax je. org ajak study, study, time takda mood, mmg tak bukak buku pun. time terlebih mood, sampai tak tdo mlm. hahah. btw, dari pukul 1 mlm smlm tk tdo lg pn except for 30min smntara tunggu pukul 3 this afternoon. haaiihh bila lah kau nak beruubaaahhh ooiiii..

ada budak kt klas ec tu. slalu duduk blakang dia,dia pandai siaaakk!! aduiii respect ah kt dia. org kate dia study spnjang masa,,waah waahh wahhh "bila kau nak jd mcm dia seh" (gila,ckp kt dri sendr)

ok ok cooopppp, ape motif tulis benda ni sbnarnya????!!! ok the main aim duduk dekat edu cafe yg permai (permai la sgt kan) cz nk download beberapa paper exam last year. yeelaaa blagak rajin la kan. lps ni nk balik tidur, entah tgk ke dok bnd2 nih.

therefore, this entry ends, until then >,<

P/s: "Ya Allah, kau permudahkanlah jalan aku dan rakan2 ku sepanjang pengajian kami di UIA yg permai ini , aminn"

Pp/s: shoot for the stars :)

BERIADAH di EDU CAFE

Laaaaaaaaaajuuuuuuuuu internet sini! sangat lah sangat.

Well actually datang sini dengan harapan nak study econs coz esok ada quiz. and BTW (which means, by the way) carries 3 credit hour okaaayyy!

tapi sbb mind and body malas so nanti2 lah yeekk.

This short entry mmg ditulis utk update empunya diri ni.

I'm already at GOMBAK, doing my degree year. 1st year 1st sem (duhh siapa yg tak tahu)

and life hv been a little pelik, tk biasa, homesick, negeri-sick and etc. mostly because, it's a new place, new environment and ada something yg TAK new? infact, hilang. hee. MR hilang dh :(

ah ah ah taknak sedih. Hahaha

And thats all lah. haih :)